Friday, June 02, 2006
Everything's in a mess. Well apparently there was something wrong with me yesterday, i didnt know what i was talking about. Emotions just overtook my thoughts. I couldnt help it. I dont know whether to say what i really wanto say, or say something else to cover up. The latter is what i've been doing all along, but i get unexpected reactions. So, like chuwen said, say what you really wanto say. So i did. And the outcome is so unwanted. Please, tell me what to do? I follow my heart, i get outcomes i dont like. I follow what chuwen says, the outcome is unwanted. I feel as though i really dont have my own mind. Thank you chuwen for helping me all along, i need that. Maybe i should try to settle things myself, but being such a dependent person, i just cant. I wish i could count on you, but i guess you're gone forever.
Qihang, in less than 20 days. Good luck people, it's the only thing that keeps me going. Cause you're no motivation anymore. I'm sorry i said the wrong thing. I really couldnt cope anymore.
I'm dead.
It's a beautiful disguise.